Daughter - Youth (Alle Farben Remix)
It feels so good to be done with the semester. So so goooood. LED tonight :)
I feel sick to my stomach lately with how things in my life have been going. There’s too much tragedy and unfortunate things happening around me, and I’m struggling hard to find the good. The amount of irony in my life is enough to make anyone believe that nothing is coincidence. At one moment, I’m struggling with money and confused as hell about my path in life, but my personal relationships thrive. But as of now, it’s vice versa. I’m okay with money, I’m okay with my path in life, but my personal relationships are falling apart. And this one thing, this one factor, is destroying my personal relationships. And I hate it. I wish it never existed. It’s apparent that throughout my whole life, this thing has never been good to me and so I show no favor to indulge myself in it no matter how many times people have tried to get me to see good in it. I see it as a destroyer. When I’m accepting of it, when I’m not accepting of it. It doesn’t matter because it always screws things up and takes away people that I love. I’ve lost too many and I don’t want to lose anymore. I’m getting so tired of dealing with it.
Dude. I should get an award or something. I hate going through this shit again. So because I HAVE to put up with it, I’m fucking pampering and treating myself to something good. I don’t need anymore stress, kthxbai.
It’s intense because this is for real. Probably one of the most cliche feelings in the world, yet the most amazing. I wouldn’t trade this for anything.
“Oh you’re everything I’m wanting, come to think of it, I’m aching.
On account of my transgression, will you welcome this confession?”
It’s always good to get another perspective on things.
I never thought that all those times I felt you reach over for me in the middle of the night, slightly waking me up, would actually be what helped me sleep so soundly.
I keep waking up every hour looking for you.
I miss Derrick.
In all honesty, I hate feeling left out. But I’m not going to change myself and my ways to be “okay” with the rest. I just hate feeling like I’m missing out on moments. I wish I could share them with you. That’s all I want really..
I hate that I put so much into things and get absolute shit back. I am worth more than this and I know it.
Unf. Can’t contain myself for this.
I feel like the weekend went by too quickly. Blah!
I want to cuddle, but my partner is not here yet. SIGH. I GUESS I’LL WAIT.
I seem to be getting blame for stuff that is in no way my fault. It’s getting really annoying. I wish people would man up and take the blame for once instead of pointing fingers.